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| so tasty in my tummy |
[04 Aug 2004|06:34pm] |
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i just ate a lobster! my mom brought home lobster and we ate it and we had a lot of fun. i feel so high up on the food chain right now. i mean it's not to say i wasn't downright horrified while attempting to eat it (i wouldn't even touch the shell for a while), or that i didn't yelp and flail my arms everytime its little antennae would rest on my hand, but i was damn entertained, not to mention that i prevailed.
lobster: 1 (i cut my hand on its claw nubby spike)
christie: 1,000,000 (i then proceeded to eat him, so i won the war, and even negated the afformentioned battle)
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| "step out the front door like a ghost into a fog where no one notices the contrast of white on white |
[25 Jul 2004|01:29pm] |
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i hate that i can be traumatized. i hate what happened last night.
"in between the moon and you, angels get a better view of the crumbling difference between wrong and right.
and i walk in the air, between the rain, through myself and back again.
where?
i don't know.
maria says she's dying, through the door i hear her crying. why? i don't know.
'round here we always stand up straight. 'round here, something radiates."
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[19 Jul 2004|05:58pm] |
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am i the bad guy?!?
*funny accent* iiiiinteresting.
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[17 Jul 2004|02:08am] |
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song stuck in my head from the radio ("we like this song") |
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dear whoever dumped a frosty on my car and left their shit on my roof,
thanks. grow up.
love,
christie
other than that i feel both purged and anxious, and if it were different i could feel vulnerable but i don't.
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[15 Jul 2004|01:21am] |
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i'm real tired but i wanted to play on the internet. just hanging around lately. being really lazy. it's been raining men in the ole dirty jers lately. well, by raining men i mean raining bucketloads of rain nonstop. i mean it's not stupposed to be able to rain that hard for that long. matty came to visit chris today and i was stupid excited. i feel pretty good about myself as of late and it's made me reconsider some tentative thoughts and other such things that i've had. i played smash brothers for the first time since the fall and it was disgraceful. i feel bad for people who suck at videogames. i usually have my sweet ass accelerated learning curve but it let me down today. alas, good times lately. i ate the most amazing pizza i have ever tasted today. seriously, no joke. i have to realize that i'm not in like in another world and if i'm going to want to transfer at any point i have to get a move on it. but i haven't been very good at thinking into the future lately. it's funny because i feel so much better when i don't. haha! i feel like laughing. and rocking out to mars volta even though i'm so tired my eyes feel like they can't hold onto my head anymore! STALK THE GROUND!
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| i think i'd get more personal growth done if i were nocturnal |
[12 Jul 2004|05:53am] |
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1. i want to be able to be friends with his parents. i wanna be a real person in front of his dad and not feel so [wrong/pile of numbers/young]. but that's insignificant compared to the feeling i get inside when i think about what i want for him. what i want to be able to do. what i want him to have. i needed what i got tonight. getting away. being around people but still being able to think. sunset diner somehow promotes some great thought time for me. i'm not sure why. i might go alone tomorrow and drink coffee and scribble things down. i'm not sure why i feel like i have so much to think about. i do. i want an endless middle-of-the-night to do it. it's not the kind of thing you can do during the day. and i just don't want the sun to come up so i can keep feeling this way. but even just feeling this way makes me feel better. it's so strange. so strange. i don't know. i feel i can think about everything. his car parked at the end of the street. it's so odd and intriguing that sometimes at times of [mental/emotional/personal] turmoil, you can really feel human.
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[08 Jul 2004|02:09pm] |
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ben folds live |
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i have a confession to make
i'm addicted.
yeah, it's only been two times in the past three days, but... i need more.
more!
more ben folds.
( even more than this! )
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[03 Jul 2004|06:46pm] |
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food network... mmm seafood all day. |
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yesterday chris taught me how to drive stick
over lunch at the diner on 31
and on a test drive
...in a wrx.
*all-teeth toddler-christie grin*
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[01 Jul 2004|08:49pm] |
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giving THE cd a solid once through |
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i never cease to amaze myself
i just made the best cd ever for alex. i mean it's like a mona lisa of cds. if christie were ever to give alex a cd, well,...it'd be this one.
seriously, it should be hung on a wall in a musuem somewhere. multiple museums. worldwide. hall of fames. ( honorary plaques. )
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| anyone wanna hire me/give me $120 in parts (or you can add $830 in labor if you're feeling nice) |
[29 Jun 2004|03:01pm] |
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so now its no job AND no car
i'll be telling myself, hey, this gives getting good and greasy car working on bonding time with dad, as well as playing solitaire and watching food network and murder she wrote bonding time with mom, and sistoooor please save me i have to get out of the house bonding with sara. right?
i hope so.
or knitting time! or cooking delicious food time! or reading time or, daresay, writing time?
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[28 Jun 2004|10:56am] |
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i'm turning into a monster
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[21 Jun 2004|05:28pm] |
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| How to make a ilikecoffee |
Ingredients:
5 parts friendliness
5 parts crazyiness
3 parts beauty |
Method:
Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add a little curiosity if desired! |
Personality cocktailFrom Go-Quiz.combahahahahah. so today i went swimming at megan's with meg and tony and it was sweet because it was the pre-k/kindergarten gang back in action. "we're almost adults" so that was really fun and i've been wanting to go swimming for so long. and tonight i'm having delicious dinner at my house and then chris and i are going out for delicious dessert and coffee together. yummmmmmm. so i still don't have a job and my dad is gunna start getting on my ass hardcore about it but everyone's having trouble. and it's hard to motivate myself as much as i should be because i forget and it's not like i'm sitting here like i need money NOW i just need to be saving up and stuff. yep. might go to the beach on monday. my birthday is on wednesday. i've been kinda emotional lately but i think a lot of it is adjusting to living at home again, which i've pretty much done at this point. stuff is pretty awesome, if i do say so myself. relaxing and awesome. and there's still so much i wanna do. oh man carol and i went to lambertville/new hope yesterday and i totally made a duckie friend and he was nibbling on my finger and i saw turtles and lots of cool little critters and we got huge ice cream cones of the best ice cream in the universe.. i got tree bark (it tastes like nutmeg and cinnamon and stuff... september on a cone... heaven...) and carol got black cherry. yum, homemade ice cream. haha and martin called me when we were in the used book/record store to say happy fathers day, lol. yeah and ben called me a few days ago to sing ben folds and say hi, so io called him back while watching family guy cause i thought of him. i think about my friends from school a lot. i'm still definitely going to see people soon. oh! and then i saw kates house on friday, that was so much fun to have the three of us together. saturday was a bbq for my baby cousins birthday/my sisters/my uncles/mine, so that was really fun because chris came and got to meet my crazy family and we played with kittens and little cousins and such. i'm pumped for the 4th of july, then the 5th of july and the 7th of july because that's ben folds. woop!
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[19 Jun 2004|11:41pm] |
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i want you to notice when i'm not around
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[14 Jun 2004|07:25pm] |
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well, i'm back
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| it's more of a "see you later" |
[10 Jun 2004|02:06am] |
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nothing like laughing and reminiscing and packing with some of the few of your best friends who haven't left yet, including billy joel and elton john
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| i want to go swimming |
[09 Jun 2004|04:34pm] |
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chris(tian) is gone, we helped chris (bell) move out (in this heat) and he went home with him. ben left today. as did countless others.
it's gunna get real lonely here real quick.
but actually seeing people move out makes it a lot less sad than it was to think about it. because i know who i'm gunna see. and it makes moving out and everything kind of a relief, something that will be lifted off your shoulders.
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[06 Jun 2004|11:31am] |
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yesterday... i can't really say anything about it that will mean anything. this all happened so fast that it's even harder to understand. it really hit me last night. i'm trying to not let myself think "who's next?" because even if it feels like you're surrounded by death, being controlled by the idea of it is something entirely different. nora, my heart is with you, your mom, your brother, panda, and your entire family. you are honestly one of the most amazing, genuine, beautiful, happy people i have ever met. i want to do something and i know that there is only so much that any of us can do. we all love you and will always be here for you, no matter how much everyone tells you that it still holds true. it's so horrible that it had to come of something like this, but we were all together yesterday. for the first time in what feels like years to me. and it reminds me that we're all looking out for one another and always will be. "our little group has always been and always will until the end."
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[03 Jun 2004|10:10pm] |
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so i come back to my room and there's a heavy, suspiciously brick sized newspaper wrapped parcel on my desk. i open this brick-like package to find a brick with "Friend" written on it in marker. needless to say, only the best kind of friends (ie: martin) give friends brick friends (or friend bricks).
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[03 Jun 2004|06:56pm] |
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so i wrote my concert reports and finished my art history paper. now i just have to finish my 202 paper for tomorrow. then all that's left is the 10 page paper for beat class due tuesday. (translation: it's gunna be a FUN weekend!) well and then my three finals next week, but i'm not so worried about them. i'll get through it all, i think.
everything goes back and forth a lot. wanting to get out of here and realizing i'm going to miss it. being in school so late helps the "wanting to leave" argument. but i realize what i have with my friends here. even though i am jealous of some people from home. i love the people here to death. it's going to be really weird living without them if i transfer. it's just so strange having no idea where i'm going to be. and it was really strange seeing ben and tony's room with unbunked beds. people are going to start leaving really soon.
i think today at lunch with dr. saar was one of the first times here that i felt kind of appreciated as a student. i also tripped on a step while holding two coffees.
i kind of can't wait for things to die down a little bit so i can just revel in whatever i find. all of it. it's strange how i think back a month and a half and i feel like i'm so much older. i want to spend time with the people in bridgewater that are important to me. the ones i genuinely care about and feel genuinely appreciated when i'm with them and those with whom i just know. i want to throw lots of things out. i want to do something different to my room. i guess i do want the summer. i want to not so much find as rediscover my feet.
i can't think clearly enough beyond the surface right now to elaborate on anything. i just get these fragments or instants of feeling and then they're gone.
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